This is bullshit! I want my summer back! I can’t belive tant the summer is allmost over…i deffinetly have to get some gurls and head to the beach.
Me and my aunt are planning a trip to pismo beach and go and stay in one of thoes sky scrapers looking over the city just like i rember it. Like i said before…damm good to have the mind of a kid…crap. ill post some photos later.
thats it for now..have a good morning.
Well i am not the fastest typer and alot of my things on this page may be mispelled. Fuck “Home Row” My bad.
In my years i feel that i have gotten dummer, yet smarter cirtin things. One thing that you probly notisted in my spelling. it is not at its best. also i am holding back on my profanity. Being in school and haveing to fight changes people. Saying this, i think of my cosin in prision.If you knew him you would agree that he was not a bad person.
God, jesus,ect. has granted me a everything in my life today. I personaly have no i dea why i did this blog. i guess just one of thoes stories neeing to be told…supose somebady will relate to me…and maby i could help them out. I am not going to give out my name just because, there is no real reason why anybpdy should have it. (i dont mean that in an asshole way) Any way i want to talk about my life… ok here it goes:
I have had a mearly hard life, with a hard to get along with fatrher and most of my family unknown or dont want to see me. ht e onily real people that u know (that are in my family) are eve(my a good frend and a great aunt. she said she would take the place of my bithch grandmother that i now forgive .I will talk more about these people later)uncle charley,uncly eddy,cholurnda ect. But as for eddy is tight so was cherly…now dead…brain my brother…dead…My aunt ruth…dead….My cosin..dead
There has been thease losses in just one year…2005 one of the worst years for me.
i lived in my old grandmas house when i was 9 years old. i used to have thease weard dreams that i was mixing up my memmories and crap you know thoes just totaly bazar dreams anyway. one of the purpous of this blog was to help me rember my memmories as i get older. i wish i could of done this if i had the means.
When you are yong everything was new and nothing was impossible. As you get older you start makeing your own limits concluded by your age and what other people your age are doing . Anways the point, when i was a child i would of like to record od what i thought about and what cirtin things mean to me. Like right now i just got a memmory of when i first was learning how to swim. It was in one of thoes nameless hotels. yet the day held a warm feeling and a sence of family. it was me my mother and my dad and we took a trip just to get away from dayly life. i would pos some pictures but i didnt have a comora at the time……shit why am a posting all this crap on a blog…..anyway
i was useing a lifeguard circle thing u kno thoes things that they have in the public pools incase sombody drowns. i was useing that just to float around on. pops kept saying good job…in whitch he rarely says now. never told me good job. I think there reason for this blog, maby to express who i am.
I think people have diferent faces different personalitys for different stages in there life. when i was a kid i said everything that came to my mind. i wore hick shirts an was fat kid that no one felt sorry for. I have moved on (and if youre wondering…yep six pac lol(im not being erogant, i promis im not like that) )
I allwase didnt like school…in fact i hated it…..despised it….and i landed up in more trouble not going.
I am realy feeling that this blog will get some things off my chest sence when i was …..well you kno
Any way if you are reading all of this you may be getting board…my apoliges.
My aunt is an alcholic and she is still my best bud. we have been that way ever sance i can ramber. we have all wase had fun togeather. (things were better when i was yoner than now. now i wight when she is sober) we used to go to restrunts and have a good time. she would allwase be in a good mood in front of me i lived in hayward at this time and she lived in sanjose ca. so she used to drive oover and pick me up.Dont get me wrong there were bad times also. but i try and rember the good times. Now lets flash foward to 4 years ago we had or firs vacation just me and eve. i cant rember that well because we had 2 of them. the first one was going good….shit i will post more later….
The purpous of this blog is undefined. Im going to display my entrity to complete strangers, yet how can this be different than life being viewed in words. In school ect. life is hard. I wish that in doing this blog i will guide some kid, or anybody for that matter in finding who they are, as i find out who i am.Who am i?
